Here i am! a year older, having lesser to live! than lived! The year was probably the most unlike any year in my life so far. My ‘professional life’, the word that i was unlikely to be concerned about took a very strange turn, i took on the corporate world after a longtime maybe a first in 5 years. This year probably will also go on in my life as the only year i hope so i was afraid of things and not sure of so many things! Incidents happening around took me more by surprising swiftness. What was expected to stay jetted out. But well dots sure connect and life does go forward and only be understood later working backwards.

I dreamed the least in my life in the last year. I visualised the least. Views were muddled and visions were hazzy. What i expected to be my strength emerged to be my weakness and my weakness was abyss. Felt I was either in checkmate or stalemate position most of the time.

Reminds me of the L& T Manapakkam building that rests on 3 columns. It great to have a structure that rests on few supports but the damage that will occur if one of the bases is to be lost. Well all of that…. Oh Man! Was a strange year. Went thro what i thought i don’t associate part of metal with. 365 days and a full 180 degress!

My biggest enemy was my brain that refused to Ctrl+Alt+Del many processes! for whatsoever reason! The year however gave me and introduction to some very intresting and inspiring people. Realised that the least affected life was mine of the people i met! Well that is indeed a blessing.

Was also exposed to an ‘employee’s perspective’ of corporate life after many years. Whew! No comments on that and would be very biased to make one and would unfairly expose me in the positive light if i were to describe the same in cautic ways. Anyways fullstop on the description for now.

Not that life was unfair to me. No man will ever be tested beyond what he can take it says, so it wa more a matter of choices or the direction of the wind that controlled the day which i allowed it to uncontrollably which was sad! as a human being.

Had a kid in the family. Was a delight and realised that i was raised with the same expectations and i have by and large failed to meet so far and deliver and i hope so don’t in the days to come.

The last year i didn’t fight back! and that was the saddest thing i feel. I took the path with the least resistance expecting the divine righteous order to prevail but why should i expect the world to be right! quizzed my friend guide and philosopher to me!

Adding more content to this blog soon.

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